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28 April 2014 @ 10:13 pm
"Faithfully" (Fic, Jared/Jensen, NC-17)  
Title: Faithfully
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Warnings: RPS, explicit sex, language
Word Count: 1,688
Summary:  Written for this prompt at spnkink_meme: Jensen/Jared, top!Jensen, anal, coming untouched.
A/N: I don't really know, either. It's either infidelity or bearding or just a really dramatic long distance relationship? It's kinda whatever you want it to be. #scarf

It wasn’t until they kissed for the first time that Jared understood what love feels like – that love is only as real as you want it to be, that sometimes – like the old saying goes – the best things in life really are worth waiting for.

It’s been seven weeks since he’s traced the contours of Jensen’s body, peppered kisses upon that warm, freckled flesh and spent hours breathing in the musky-sweet scent of him. But Jared could still build him from memory alone if he had to, can still taste the salt of Jensen’s skin on his lips when he closes his eyes.

Jared can barely keep his hands from trembling as he pushes the trailer door open and eagerly drinks in the sight of him – clothes and hair slightly rumpled from the flight, his carry-on bag still slung over one shoulder. He doesn’t mean to, but it’s instinct more than anything when he glances past Jensen to see if anyone’s paying them any attention.

“Hey Jared,” Jensen smiles faintly. “Catch you at a bad time?”

“Naw ‘s all right. Good to see you, man,” Jared replies. “C’mon in.”

Filming won’t start for another day and a half, and yet the words on their lips are as rehearsed as those said while the cameras are rolling. His heart is thundering painfully behind his ribs as Jensen brushes passed him and they both reach out to shut and lock the door behind them.

It happens so quickly that it punches the air from Jared’s lungs in the best way possible – Jensen’s arms wrapped so tightly around him, bodies slotted together all the way from shoulders down to ankles. He closes his eyes and nudges his nose into the soft, sun-kissed brown spikes and just breathes, letting the familiarity soothe him as Jensen squeezes tighter still.

“I missed you,” Jared needlessly says, even though he can barely get the words out around the emotion tight in his throat.

“Me too,” Jensen breathes. “Thought about you every fucking second of every day.”

Jared snorts softly despite the relief settling in his bones, gradually soothing away the ache of loneliness and doubt that inevitably creeps in during their times apart. “Drama queen,” he teases, unable to keep a smile from tugging at his lips.

Jensen pulls away just enough to slide one hand up to cradle Jared’s cheek, thumb brushing gently across his cheekbone and then down to rest of the corner of his mouth. It’s been years, but Jensen’s never stopped looking at him like this – like this is where his world begins and ends, like the best parts of himself are reflected back at him in Jared’s eyes.

Jared moans softly into it when their lips come crashing together, the grainy stubble on Jensen’s chin rough against his skin, sending tremors of arousal racing down his spine. He steps them backward toward the couch in the corner of the trailer and shoves his hands down between them, suddenly frantic to get Jensen’s clothes off. He nearly topples over when his legs bump into the edge of the sofa, but Jensen catches Jared around the waist to steady them both.

He holds Jared’s gaze steady as he slowly unbuttons and unzips, peeling away layers of clothing until he’s standing there in just a pair of sinfully tight, navy blue boxer-briefs. Jensen reaches out to help Jared out of his clothes as well, but he doesn’t stop until Jared’s completely nude. Jared goes willingly when Jensen pushes on his shoulders, urging him to sit before sinking to his knees between Jared’s legs.

He’s painfully hard already, but his cock still twitches and jerks when Jensen circles his tongue over the tip, licking around the swollen crown before sliding across the leaking slit. His eyes fall shut as Jensen sinks down further, swallowing the length of Jared’s stiff flesh before pulling back up again and settling into a steady rhythm. He’s absolutely beautiful like this, with the soft fringe of his lashes fluttering over his cheeks and his plump lips stretched wide around Jared’s throbbing shaft.

It feels awesome – always does with Jensen – but he needs more, has been craving this in particular for weeks on end. “Jen,” he murmurs. “Can you- I mean- I need you to fuck me.”

It’s not the dirtiest thing he’s ever said – not even close, actually – but Jensen still bites back a broken moan and lifts up, letting Jared’s slick-wet flesh slip easily out of his mouth. “Turn over for me,” he half-asks, knowing damn well that Jared is not about to refuse.

Jensen pushes himself upright and takes a step back, giving Jared enough room to turn and lean over to brace himself with his hands on the back of the couch. He’s unexplainably a bit bashful now standing there completely on display, but Jensen leans in close a moment later, draping himself over Jared’s back and bringing his lips close to his ear.

“Wanted this, too,” Jensen whispers. His words are soft and warm, his lips catching and dragging against Jared’s earlobe. “Missed you so much, baby.” He punctuates his statement by rocking his hips against Jared’s, easily sliding the length of his erection along Jared’s ass crack.

Jensen stands up straight again, sliding his hands down to rest on Jared’s hips, humming in approval when Jared shuffles his feet apart slightly. He’s surprisingly gentle – playful, even – as he kneads the firm muscle, squeezing Jared’s cheeks without venturing any further.

“Jensen, come on,” Jared huffs. He laughs softly a moment later, embarrassed at his own impatience. His face heats up even more at the memory of what he did earlier this afternoon, of just how impatient he got when he found out that Jensen’s flight would be delayed.

“All right,” Jensen grins. “I just w-“ He stops abruptly with a quiet gasp as soon as his fingertips skirt along the cleft of Jared’s ass.

“Didn’t wanna waste any time,” Jared explains, breathless already at the sensation of Jensen’s fingers teasing over his lube-slicked hole. “C’mon, Jen. Please.”

“All right,” Jensen repeats. “It’s okay. I gotcha.” His voice is low and soothing now, but Jared still catches the waver of arousal reserved just for him, the vulnerability of a heart exposed but not bleeding, of a love that will always be theirs and theirs alone.

He draws in a slow, deep breath and closes his eyes as Jensen lines himself up, pushing the hard, leaking tip of his cock against Jared’s entrance. His exhale is slow and shaky, emotion trembling deep inside him as Jensen sinks in further, all the way until his thighs are resting flush against Jared’s and his throbbing length is sheathed completely within him. Jared turns as much as he can; craning his neck to silently ask for a kiss that Jensen gladly gives him.

“C’mere,” Jensen breathes once their lips slide apart. He drags his hand up the length Jared’s torso to rest at the center of his chest and then pulls gently, urging him upright as well.

The change in angle is incredible, pushing the rounded head of Jensen’s cock right up against Jared’s sweet-spot. A moan tears from Jared’s throat before he can think to stop it, but at this point the last thing on his mind is who might overhear them. He flails one arm out to brace himself against the wall and brings his other hand up to curl around Jensen’s as he begins to move.

Jensen begins with just a slow, gentle roll of his hips. It still feels amazing as he gradually increases his depth until he’s pulling almost all the way out on every thrust, his thick cock-head tugging at the sensitive skin around Jared’s rim. He can feel every inch of Jensen’s body tangled together with his own, wrapped all the way around him, hot and pulsing inside him. The pleasure is as visceral as it is puzzling, swirling low in his stomach like a warm and beautiful summer storm slowly picking up speed.

Jared tightens his grip around Jensen’s hand when the older man tries to pull away. “Just like this,” Jared says firmly. He glances down for a split-second and has to tear his eyes away from the sight of his own neglected cock, dark with arousal and bobbing against his stomach as he moves in tandem with Jensen’s thrusts.

“Feel good?” Jensen growls against the shell of Jared’s ear.

“Fuck yeah,” Jared easily replies. “So good, babe. Been too damn long… Needed you so bad…”

“I’m right here with you, baby. Stay with me, ‘kay?”

Jared can only moan in response, but when Jensen turns his hand to thread their fingers together, the muted sound of platinum clinking together rings softly in his ears. It’s another moment before the sensation and emotion surge together, sending sparks of pleasure blooming under every inch of his skin. He chokes out Jensen’s name in warning a split-second before his body seizes tight, his cock jerking as the first spurt of his release shoots hot and wet from his throbbing slit. He’s only vaguely aware of the choked-off obscenities bursting non-stop from Jensen’s lips, but suddenly all the pieces slide into place as the sudden heat of Jensen’s release fills him again and again.

They keep moving together until the sensation is too much, but even then, they cling to each other like the world will tear them apart if they let go. Jensen’s breaths flowing over the back of Jared’s neck are like soft, warm satin and the rapid flutter of his heartbeat against Jared’s back is pure comfort like nothing else. There’s so much he wants to say – that needs to be said – but the words get caught in his throat, the way they so often do whenever Jensen’s involved.

It’s moments just like these that remind him how little everything else matters – that sometimes the truth tastes like lies and love feels like pain, but in the end it always comes down to this – the sound of two hearts beating in perfect tandem as the rest of the world around them fades away.
spnjunkie25spnjunkie25 on April 29th, 2014 10:43 am (UTC)
wow! this was sooo beautiful and sexy :) I could feel the longing and neediness from both of them, very well written ! Thank you for sharing :D xoxo
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 05:20 am (UTC)
Thank you very much! <3
Sabrinaslf630 on April 29th, 2014 10:46 am (UTC)
I may have (totally did) make some seriously embarrassing, happy dolphin-like noises when I saw that you finished this. :) Soooo good. Love me some angst-light J2. That last paragraph was beautiful. Welcome back, bb! :)
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 05:21 am (UTC)
Yay, so glad you liked it! I'm not sure if I'm 'back' per se, but it was nice that J2 decided to cooperate with me and let this fic be written, hehe <3
twnchesterangeltwnchesterangel on April 29th, 2014 12:08 pm (UTC)
Ahhhhh! I LOVE when you write. Please never stop. This was beeeeautiful. So descriptive and JUST what I needed to start my day. Lol Nothing like some sweaty, passionate reunion trailer sex on an early Tuesday morning. Mmmmm Thanks so much!!! *hugs*
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 05:22 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, bb! And hehe, I guess Tuesday isn't just pig in a poke day ;)
wings128: J2!frownwings128 on April 29th, 2014 02:46 pm (UTC)
Utterly beautiful. The emotion infused into these words is breathtaking. Thank you for writing and sharing this.
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 05:22 am (UTC)
Thank you very much for your sweet comment!
imaginecoolname: Dean/Samimaginecoolname on April 29th, 2014 05:52 pm (UTC)
I always adore your writing, and I missed it so much - so this was the most perfect treat and made my day. :) This fic was beautiful and bittersweet and so hot. The intense emotions, the longing and the need were conveyed so movingly, I absolutely loved it! You always manage to give your fics such depth, even if they're not very long. Thank you so much for this. *hugs*
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 05:26 am (UTC)
Thank you for always reading & leaving me some love :) I've been having trouble being inspired to write lately, so I'm just happy that J2 decided to be cooperative and let me write this, hehe.
Andiepaper_storm88 on April 29th, 2014 06:55 pm (UTC)
Beautifully written. And this - "It’s been years, but Jensen’s never stopped looking at him like this – like this is where his world begins and ends, like the best parts of himself are reflected back at him in Jared’s eyes." Guh. Such a perfect description of how Jensen always looks at Jared.
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 05:29 am (UTC)
Thank you so much! And yeah, those boys are always making hearteyes at each other, hehe. Very inspiring, indeed!
deezy_y: Sam and Dean hug intimatedeezy_y on April 29th, 2014 08:04 pm (UTC)
Beautiful, heartwarming and heart-wrenching all at the same time. Well done!
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 07:05 am (UTC)
Thank you very much!
deanshot: breathlessdeanshot on April 29th, 2014 09:49 pm (UTC)
Simply gorgeous writing.
So much love in it and so heart warming.
Thanks for sharing.
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 07:06 am (UTC)
Thank you! Happy to hear you liked it! <3
maryjo24maryjo24 on April 30th, 2014 02:24 am (UTC)
Echoing the prevailing commentary as was my first thought as I read through it, this was so beautifully written. Wonderfully descriptive and unique turns of phrases.

Loved it!
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 07:06 am (UTC)
Thank you for reading & for your sweet comment! <3
gorkonelkagorkonelka on April 30th, 2014 08:17 pm (UTC)
Beautiful!!! This is how I love my J2 written :)
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 07:11 am (UTC)
Thank you very much!
shenovashenova on April 30th, 2014 08:28 pm (UTC)
Wonderfully written story with nice hot moments with the guys.
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 1st, 2014 07:12 am (UTC)
Thank you! <3
sadritsuka12sadritsuka12 on May 2nd, 2014 05:39 am (UTC)
love it
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 8th, 2014 08:44 am (UTC)
Thank you! <3
laurathelurkerlaurathelurker on May 2nd, 2014 10:27 pm (UTC)
Beautifully written and hot as hell.
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 8th, 2014 08:45 am (UTC)
Thank you very much! :)
angelskissangelskiss on May 8th, 2014 09:19 am (UTC)
Wow this was beautiful. I have been in need of a good J2 fic and this was perfect. I always look forward to your writing and you never disappoint.
Sakurasakura_no_mi on May 19th, 2014 03:54 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, bb! And sorry for such a late reply <3
lucianwolflucianwolf on May 19th, 2014 10:32 pm (UTC)